Why.

Everybody's asking what's going on with our family?

Just so you know.

There are, I mean, there were 5 of them. Mama, Tito Pancho, Tito Alan, Tita Ela and Tito Roldan. They are siblings, they were sibs. Mama passed away last year of January. I really didn't know how to cope with her passing away. But as a true-hearted Christian, I accepted it whole heartedly. She had done and experienced many things and so it's my turn - to live life independently with some great help from Mama's sibs and friends.

Just weeks ago, my grandmother spent 3weeks in the hospital. She has undergone 2 operations - first, one finger toe was removed, then the next day, they needed to remove her right leg. It really saddened me because I know she didn't like it. Before the operation, she told us that she would never EVER undergo the operation - she wanted to give herself back to the Lord whole - BUO.

I was getting ready to go back to school to attend our rehearsals when Tita Marlene (Mama's 1st cousin) arrived and told me Tito Pancho passed away due to cardiac arrest. I didn't show much reaction but inside, my heart was breaking. I never expected him to pass away just a year after Mama. He was very close to me. When he would come here from Lasam, and me coming from Manila (back then), he would always take me with him in his favorite place - sa sugalan. I just sat beside him and chew a bubble gum he would give me then he wins. I was sort of his lucky charm. WOO :)

During his wake in our family house, another news broke my heart. TOTALLY. Tito Alan passed away just days after Tito Pancho. I didn't know how to react.
NOTE1. Tito Alan is the not-so-close brother of Mama who volunteered to shoulder my college when Mama passed away. And that, I didn't expect. He was really a good guy that I made a song for him.
NOTE2. I used the guitar. O, what a trying-hard? LOL.

These trials are just tearing me down in pieces but I do have a loving family to put me back in one piece.